She paints her face to hide her face. . .

So today was not was I was expecting at all. I was just hoping for a mellow day and just chill and get through school and get stoked for my birthday

HELL NO

My day was over all bad. Yeah I smiled, but I was hurting inside. Yes Taylor waited for me after mod A. THAT MADE MY FUCKING MORNING :D

He waited. Ah I feel loved again :)

Anyway, what turned my day is that my friend, how near and dear she is to me, was sad. So sad indeed. I tried literally EVERYTHING to cheer her up and pretty much all failed. I feel like a failure as a friend. But, I am I guess. I made mistakes that made them leave.

All throughout US History I was like "You need to smile, is he really worth it?" Because was he really? His behavior? Is it acceptable?

No. Most certainly not.
YOUR HURTING MY BEST FRIEND. STOP.
That's what I was to SCREAM to him.
Yes, Im angry, I really am. The way he's acting toward her is wrong. She deserves everything this world has to offer. She's beautiful and smart and funny and charming. I love her to death and will do literally ANYTHING to make her happy. And this guy isn't. He's being a douchbag. He walked right by us this morning. And I saw him looked. ASSHOLE right? That's what I said. And Im not ashamed of saying it either. He's an asshole and deserves nothing. He plays with hearts. Just like every other teenage man in Candia.

Anyway, I tried everything to make her just smile, everything.

Then what happens? She sees a friend for maybe a minute and bam her day is all better.

Were all my efforts wasted?
I tried everything to make you happy.
I love you so much. And no offense to you Taylor one bit I SWEAR IT.
Im just jealous, the fact she just brightens up that quickly, after I try all day long to help. I feel like I'm just talking to nothing and wasting my breath and energy.

But I'm going to keep trying.
Even if they arent appreciated. Because I'm never appreciated. But I keep going to prove to people I have a purpose.

Do I have a purpose anymore?

~*I'm never in the equation. Im always the x that gets discarded and *poof* dissapears. And the equation continues*~