It's my time now. .

This blog is going to be very personal to me, and to those reading it. It's a very serious matter to me, and if your just going to read between the lines and try to understand what Im trying to say, then leave now.

My entire life, Ive had to give up literally everything. My childhood was taken away from me by three other people. I taught myself to braid my hair, and I always had a book by my side, I knew I was never the center of attention. I was isolated a lot and ridiculed by family for the longest time. It was hard growing up, I never got what I wanted, it was always for them.

When I started going to school and make friends, I sat in the back, not bringing attention to myself because, what was the point? You going to get laughed at anyway. Friends were difficult to come by because they were differnt from me, I just never really got along with them. In Middle and High school, the real pain began. By then I had very close friends whom I had loved greatly. Because they knew this, I had to listen to them. I had to help them. I had to give up everything for them. And when I called for help, They just kinda, walked away. Given, they did help a lot. But it wasnt always enough.

Even now, the thing I want most is someting no one else wants. Well, you know what? I DONT CARE. There's something that finally makes me happy and actually feel better about myself. Someone I dont have to sacrivce all my time to, he listens to me too and does help me. Im done giving up everything. I never got what I wanted. It's finally my turn to make the choice I want. And, if you cant accept this, then Im sorry. My best friend is enough for me and I love her so much. She cares and wont leave. She loves me for who I am and listens to me and helps me. She pulled me out of shit, and I did too. She let me be selfish every once and a while. Something I never did. I finally broke free. And I feel a million times better. Im happy, Ive made my choice. Youve all made yours. I hope you think it's the right one.

*~It's now my time to choose what I want. And now Im going to take it.~*