I cant get this out of my mind.
It replays in my head all the time.
what can I do?
I don't want to sit here alone
but I cant do anything
I dont want to anger more people
I have to stay
and accept all my faults
A few days ago, I was struck by a memory. And I couldnt get it out of my head so I decided to dig further, knowing it would hurt. I took out an old video from my middle school, and watched it. I could not stop crying. I sat there for an hour watching the fallen faces of my friends. Seeing them all happy, with me, makes me so sad.
Then, I saw her. My heart felt like a lump and another flood of tears escaped my eyes. I couldnt control it. I miss her and I want to do something about it. But I know if I do, I will get backlash, severely. I did try though.
"We can never be friends again."
And It's all my fault.
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